even more "loser"

i miss my laptop too.

loser

i've been a loser for about a month n i donno how long i'll get out from being one.

i jus cant get over my ex-office, especially the height of the ceiling. n i can't get over the bistro area where i had lots of sweet second-hand smoking memories. n i cant get over the sofa at the haunted area where i hid myself from the stress n drama queens... i simply miss my ex-office so so much. minus certain number of ppl, it's the best office i've worked in so far, in terms of environment & company's system.

change of role n culture in new company really stress me out, especially now am short of hands n endless workload keeps flowing in everyday. suddenly i wish to hav 48 hours a day so i can still see my loved ones after long working hours. the time sitting at the lazy chairs n play with my cats at 1am, patting my dogs' head briefly in the morning suddenly become so precious to me...

i stil remember the few weeks before i left i jus couldnt wait to get out from there, but now i even dreamt of goin back there few days ago.

loser.

when you thought you hav it all, hold on for a sec...

on the way to office this morning, i listened to lite fm tht they hav today's topic "can women hav it all, their career & family?". it was almost the end of the show, i guess many women would hav called and shared their opinions already n the last call said yes, she has it all n she is always around be it for the family or her career. before the show ended, the dj played an interesting call from a 13year-old boy's opinion, he said (not the exact words):

"if a mother goes out at 7am n come back at 6pm, wat is motherhood for them? they only come down to see their children at breakfast n leaves for work, they come back in the evening the children is watching tv, or if later, the children hav gone to bed"

i find it's like slapping all the mothers' mouth who thought they hav it all. i'm not blaming them for being a career woman, in fact these superwomen is doin one hell of a tough job to handle career and family at the same time, but, when most of the time only adult debating if one woman is capable to handle both, maybe a child's voice can giv more insight in this topic. end of the day, it's not how much u can handle, it's how you child coping with this.

so, anybody that wants to be a mother, think wat can you giv n if you cant provide the attention all the time, how can you make it up to them. earning big bucks n materials cant buy back the time you've miss in your child's growing years.

when u r in love, u r blind.

ya, especially when u have became comfortable in a relationship, u'll be so blind to see your own mistakes.