space • distance

i love you for who you are,
and i love you for who you want to be.

you said you lost yourself in your previous marriage,
so i give you freedom in things you do and never interfere your social cycle.

we shared our dreams in our chat,
i told you i'll always be there to support you despite of our differences.

i thought i have given you enough space that you need,
but i didn't know it has created a invisible distance between us.

a spontaneous weekend spent in singapore...

uploaded @ hello singapore! long time no see...

me, and lil' sofea. i must admit i love this pic a lot.

when you said...

u don't like going to shopping complex. but we would still go shopping for groceries together sometimes. that was the plain happiness to me. it was a small matter but i feel very happy about it.

the last time we went for shopping like this was a night to atria. it was dark and quiet. while we were walking back to my car, we were holding hands. u told me: "don't you ever come here alone."

i was happy to hear that from you. happiness can be so simple as that to me.

let bygones be bygones.

words we wrote to each other in 2006 seem like a book of poem. i read my old blog entries that year, there were moments that i probably will never experience again. where has the feeling gone? we took each other for granted and that explains why...

I will remember you.

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

by Sarah McLachlan

we are all looking for happiness in our life. some find it easily. some have to walk few more blocks and wait longer until they bump into happiness maybe just around the corner. we'll find it, small happiness, big happiness, we'll sure find it.

but there's no happiness forever, and there's no true happiness, for happiness is just as simple and plain as it is. whether you are happy, happier, or happiest, you are just happy. we know no happiness without sorrow. obstacles and challenges will keep knocking our doors during whichever happy level we are at. happiness slips away when we run away from these tests. then we'll be on our next search for 'next happiness' again.

keep the little happiness, manage the challenges, and the big happiness will be forever yours. sayang.