sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

twirling, in love.

hav u played twirling before when u were a kid? u know, jus twirl at a same spot for no reason, then stop n hav fun in the after effect, get high by seeing things blur n spinning around u.

nicole kidman said something like this, tho' not in exact sentences, in the movie 'practical magic' - falling in love is like twirling, everything around u spins so fast n u cant see things clear. but u hav to focus on something otherwise u'll suffer the dizziness when u stop, n u will fall.

i havent found any better way to describe falling in love than the sentences above. especially when a new relationship start sprouting. it is so important to be with n to see tht person, tht we willing to neglect some other person, some other matters in our life.

is tht a sacrifice for love? i've been thinking bout it these few days. now i wud say no. it's killing a relationshio instead. i always believe in individualism, tht makes no exception in a realtionship when two person meet together. we become one spiritually, emotionally but not physically. despite of the treasured moments we share together, we should carry on with our own life, continue building our own social circle... n so forth.

my life was tiny in my previous relationship, i subconciously isolated myself from my friends jus to be with him. at times when i couldnt see him i became restless n negative feelings started to flow in. i became doubtful. n the worst is, i became a possesive bitch. i hate tht 'me' n i certainly don want to become like tht again...

i've been to heaven few months ago, i fell from there in these few days. yet i havent reached the hell. am grateful to say, am touching the ground, to hav a real life again.

if i change my room like yours,
will i feel you here?
if i read your letter a thousand times,
will i hear your whisper to my ears?
if i wrap myself with my own arms,
will i feel your warm embrace?
i miss you dearly, at my place.

goodnight. sweet dream.

2007 365 Days Cats & Dogs Calendar for Sale

christmas is jus around the corner, y not giving a special gift to friends and help the homeless animals at the same time?

this 365 Days Cats & Dogs Calendar wud definately make a meaningful and practical gift.

to leave or not to leave, that is not the question.

the question is - wat am i gonna do next if i leave the agency?

i have enough of advertising shits, tht's for sure. jumping into another shit hole which probably wil only keep me excited for couple of months is really unnecessary. so i guess i'll be floating on, in this big stinky shit tank, and seriously plan for the things i wanna do at the same time.

tht conveniently bring me d new year resolutions:

1. ahem~~ well, to continue the resoulution never happens this year, i, wong poh peng swear in the name of my smelly billy, tht i wil try not to say 'fuck' so much. yes, the battle carries on tho' it's more difficult than the 2nd one;
2. to get things tht i really wanna do started, even by the tiniest bit, or at part-time basis.

n of cos d above mentioned r for 2007, till then, i will cherish the remaining days with my foul mouth.

fuck.