there're things i used to say everyday...

for those things left unsaid...

like i suddenly remember the two pots of cactus i put at the corner of the balcony, many times when i water the plants i often neglect them, and when the days i finally remember their existence, they turn dried and brown. so i quickly told you so.

you are a careless person when it comes to household matters. you don't remember what you've bought and what's soon to be finished. you'll only know it when the last piece of soap is in a size of fifty cents coin. so do check on them and make a shopping list before you run out of shampoo in the middle of your shower.

i only found out recently there's a button on the iron that control the amount of steam, when you put in on the highest level, the steam come out like how steamed fish is made, but it makes the ironing easier. am not sure why whenever i use it the next time, there're some flaky white stuffs come out together with the steam, then it leaves on your black t-shirt like dandruff. so next time wipe off the flaky white stuffs before u put the iron on your clothes.

the one seater nearest to the balcony got fungus grow on it oredi. i guess there's because of the dampness from outside. we were planning to send them for dry cleaning when we'll be away for the year end holiday. so before the fabric gets torn by it's condition now maybe you have to find a day to look into it.

sometimes i will leave the bedroom window and the toilet door open, so the fresh air breeze in and bring away the dampness in the toilet. but must keep the mosquito net closed so when you come back at night, the room won't be filled by the blood suckers.

there are 2 rails on the ceiling where the washing machine is. it's better to hang the damp clothes there than hanging them on the chairs. i normally hang it there and i would open the windows. i find the clothes get dry faster and it wont leave a bad smell.

use the 'massager' you bought for me more often. i think you need it more than me as you complain the whole body aching after your ride.

those are what i remember for now. as for the things i used to say everyday i hope you'll remember...

like you should only have one egg per day.

don't smoke right after taking the medicine.

it's not macho to bring sun block for your ride but your friends would not know if you apply it at home.

check on the expiry dates before you consume anything in the kitchen and from the fridge.

and many other things i used to nag.

move on, move on!

when something unpleasant happened, it will bother me for quite some time. thing happens for a reason, n when it happened, i will keep thinking for that reason(s). then thoughts spin-off from one to another...

whether it's my bad or the client's, i learn quite a lot from taking in freelance design work lately. patience (which i really lack of) is one of it, how to leave one unpleasant thing behind and move forward is my new lesson now. it's not easy, but i can do it.

new chapter

i finally hav the guts to resign without a job. am so damn excited about my future, and scared at the sametime.

tht bali trip lah...

bali dec 2007
finally managed to upload the trip.

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i've been busy. but i can't really recall wat has been happening lately. days pass n seem meaningless to me nowadays. or hav i really been busy lately? or jus being restless n agitated?

my thoughts become random, i can't focus. there r so much things to do, i want to do, i need to do or i hav to do, but at the same time, they all seem not important at all. n i pause. at times i'm aroused by some ideas n feel energetic but it doesnt last long. i always thought i know wat i want, but now am jus not sure anymore.

now. now i jus wish i can be a selfish n irresponsible person who can walk out of everything n everyone in my life. do nothing. jus lie down n sleep. play v my pets n spend every single cent i hav. ya, like that. worries nothing even til the day when notices from banks for all the loans blast my mail box, even til they send some fierce looking men to threaten me for the payments, even til then i can jus look into their eyes n said: "so wat? i hav nothing for u, dude."

can i? i wish i can.

suddenly it's 2008.

crazy. it's year 2008 now. i can't even recall wat happened in 2007...

i jus came back from bali, dark n fat. the new year eve there turned out to be a disastrous night, n i got upset stomach since back home. so i practically spending my first few days of 2008 in toilet most of the time.