4 mths, many more to come?

i've been working in the new agency for 4 months oredi, getting to tune in better now. an x-colleague - A joined my team, we were never close in the previous agency, funny thing is we seem getting along well now n finally got a chance to change our perceptions bout each other, i think.

i was a loner in my previous agency. i donno y i jus find it's hard to mix with the ppl in my own dept. things don seem to be wat they appeared, ppl behave not wat they really feel inside. so complicated till you donno who to trust. so i hanged out with those outside the dept. i always thought A was like tht, like this then i was surprised she is actually like this, like tht... A is adapting well, i see her bubbly character finds no problem wherever she goes. in contrast am a more passive person, unless i find the ppl with a similar character like me, i'll need more time to warm up...

so to me it's tiring to deal with ppl. i know it's not clever to let ppl read me like an open book, especially in my position now there'r things i shud keep confidential n show emotionless. am learning, n it's hard. but i hope in order to upkeep the ppl management skill, i can stil keep my honest heart. i hate to be hippocrate. i don believe ppl shud change after being promoted or moving to a higher level in their life, there must be honesty to ourself in us n we must hold to tht in everything we do.

i thought of giving up at times but i convince myself to try once more, n go on. i often condemn myself for not being a quality head but i force myself to learn more, so i can go further. i thought of letting go of all responsibilities n be rebellious once more, but this time even me this rebellious old teenager, learn to grow up.

facebook...

ok, i admit, am hooked to it.

fried rice, with love

passionate

facebook

someone said i wil get hooked by facebook. i signed up, bored the hell out of me.

new year countdown

bali, wait for me, am coming over for the new year celebration.

'super boring!' girl is growing up...

i got my niece's msn contact last week when i went to my parent's house. am not sure since when she started chatting but she's 11 now so it's not a surprise to me. her log in name is 'lonelyleogirl', her appeared nickname is 'boring girl'.

tht night when i saw her chat box n those funny nicknames her friends own (only understood by tht age group), suddenly i realise how much my niece has grown up, i used to hug her in bed n watched cartoon together when she was a toddler, teased her n enjoyed her kiddish giggles. now she is taller than her mother n sometimes share the clothes too...

soon they'll be leaving to australia to reunite with my brother, with new environment n foreign language i hope my niece wil adapt well n train herself to be an independent young woman. i wonder when i wil see her again? besides in the chat world (today she changed her nickname to 'super boring!').