mother

i don like kids, not at all. i can't imagine how would it be if am a MOTHER oneday, n the idea certainly scare me a lot hence i never plan to be one. but i believe every woman has a motherly love in them no matter how, even a radical person like me. most of them show it on their kids, some show it on the husbands, some show it on the elderly, some like me, show it on the animals.

there should not be any doubt tht mother's love is the greatest love of all, saying this is not trying to demolish all emotions input from the fathers but i guess there is no way u can compete it with a mother's love. for those 'real mothers' i think the intense feeling starts the 1st day when u know there is a life inside of u...

i donno if i will ever experience tht but taking care of my late goldie during the late stage of his illness, makes me feel like a mother and finally understand why all mothers are so involved in everything in their kids' lives. his every single move at night would wake me up n my eyes r in tears when i saw he couldn't sleep.

it's a real torture to see your kids fall sick, a mother will not feel well when her kid is sick, n when my goldie's gone, my heart is totally torn...

i really really miss my goldie.



(if my goldie were still here, he would be a 3-yr-old this month.)