2006 is definitely a tough year for me. jus in the 1st month i've oredi experienced the most unbearable lost in my life so far. i've never realised tht is so precious to me.
maybe it's a blessing in disguise, a phrase tht a friend uses very often. i look back all these six years, i don think i really enjoy my life once. so i guess it's time i need to re-adjust myself, get myself together, change myself to the one i used to be six years ago, who was a happy-go-lucky, crazy jokers tht sees fun in everything. i was a weirdo n i'm still am, but this weirdo was more adorable six years ago, who can see things more clearly n think more rationally.
i hav many interests tht i used to hav, i love to paint, i think i shud paint again when am free, i bought a set of brush n ink i thought i wanna pick up my calligraphy skill again so tht i can train my patience, i think i shud get it started without giving myself excuses again. i used to listen to movie soundtracks n i used to collect these cds, maybe once a while i shud indulge myself into some good music again. if i havent abandoned these interests of mine n focus myself on some stupid thoughts; worry too much over many silly matters n become so obsessive on certain things, things won't turn out to be wat it is now.
my life has come to a crossroad tht facing choices. i hav never regretted wat i hav chosen six years ago but am sorry for wat i hav done to cause the damage. i used to hav a diary with this line printed at the bottom on every page - "experience is the name people give to their mistakes", well, it is best used to describe my terrible situation now. jus tht, this time my mistake is too destructive.
maybe i really need this mistake to knock myself up, i wil learn to be a better person, yes i wil.
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Hi I'm impressed by your feeling. Maybe we can share many things together. I can see that we have many things in common. Please drop by to my blog : xkeroncong2006.blogspot.com
Ya lah..I am not so expressful as you're...and not born to be a writer either...every day is a stress day...different people release differently...How about you?
Today the federal highway was so jammed that I arrived home at 7.30 pm although started journey at 5.30 pm...the rain had intensify the situation that I reached LDP around 7.00pm.
Do you face the same too?
By the way where you will travel this CNY? Where will be your 'makan besar'. Tell me about your family if you don't mind...maybe I can share the celebration feeling. What normally happen during this few days..?
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