nothing could ever please me n cheer me up today. i've been waiting to kill patiently but my preys are jus not in my way today. they possibly smell me from miles away. and hide. lacking blood between my teeth makes me even more agitated...
wat's wrong with me today? everything seems wrong. wrong. the sun is too bright. sky too blue. grass too green. office too cold. stomach too full. the fucking car stil has the problem. the client stil that stupid.
chill. chill. chill. shit.
relax. relax. relax. fuck.
take it easy. take it easy. bullshit.
i guess i've been too happy lately. am not supposed to be a happy person, am a weird and sad person. now am losing control and i suddenly lose d focus in my own life. wat the hell am i doin? where is myself? y am i so happy? then wat's next? wat if i spend my hapiness too fast and i hav to suck up all the sorrows for the rest of my life... i need some tragic moment. think. think. i can do it. jus think, i can be tragic.
shoot me right at the middle of my forehead. the bullet shall crash my skull and leaving a burn mark at the front, and a huge bloody wet hole at the back. the head is lighter now, the brain is smashed. tht's d thing tht keep the head heavy, tht's where it stores all the problems n puzzles. now they r all gone, all over the floor, together with the brain and blood.
i shud be dead for today. or as long as i wanna be.
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i never heard anyone complaining about their happiness. huh...
cherish the moment, live today and be proud of yourself.
everyone deserved to be happy.
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