twirling, in love.

hav u played twirling before when u were a kid? u know, jus twirl at a same spot for no reason, then stop n hav fun in the after effect, get high by seeing things blur n spinning around u.

nicole kidman said something like this, tho' not in exact sentences, in the movie 'practical magic' - falling in love is like twirling, everything around u spins so fast n u cant see things clear. but u hav to focus on something otherwise u'll suffer the dizziness when u stop, n u will fall.

i havent found any better way to describe falling in love than the sentences above. especially when a new relationship start sprouting. it is so important to be with n to see tht person, tht we willing to neglect some other person, some other matters in our life.

is tht a sacrifice for love? i've been thinking bout it these few days. now i wud say no. it's killing a relationshio instead. i always believe in individualism, tht makes no exception in a realtionship when two person meet together. we become one spiritually, emotionally but not physically. despite of the treasured moments we share together, we should carry on with our own life, continue building our own social circle... n so forth.

my life was tiny in my previous relationship, i subconciously isolated myself from my friends jus to be with him. at times when i couldnt see him i became restless n negative feelings started to flow in. i became doubtful. n the worst is, i became a possesive bitch. i hate tht 'me' n i certainly don want to become like tht again...

i've been to heaven few months ago, i fell from there in these few days. yet i havent reached the hell. am grateful to say, am touching the ground, to hav a real life again.