is it 2007 already?

when most of the bloggers oredi summarised their 2006 and planning ahead with 2007, am still struggling to recap what happened and done in the past 12 months. i wrote, n erased, few attempts to blog my 'welcome 2007' speech but failed. the work sucks me dry n it's hard to focus on the flash backs. so i thought i would jus leave it undone.

then the words suddenly flood in when i was mopping the floor in living room jus now. i finally hav the idea how to pack my 2006 and face my 2007 in few things matter the most to me in life.

about my pet
my first blog entry in 2007 was a goodbye note to my little sangria. he is a kitten i picked up in the car workshop, n later adopted him as my 12th cat. i kept him for less than 2 months, n lost him before new year. whatever sickness caused to his death, i hav no clue, i only know i lost him n i blame myself for not doin enough to save him. it left a scar tht constantly brings pain to my heart.

to my other 11 cats and 3 dogs, only if they can read, i wish they know how much they mean to me in my life. they adopted me n giv me a home. i neglected them a lot in 2006, i wil make it up to them this year by spending more time with them, provide them a better place to live, n if the balance in my bank accounts allow, i wil buy them expensive pet foods and treats. i make a virtual toast in the air now, and cheers "long live my pets!". part of me wil die if any one of them is gone.

my family
after being abroad in u.s. for 20 years, my eldest sister n brother in-law came back to visit my father. they stayed for a week and went back. i heard from my mom the first sentence my father said to my brother in-law (after not seeing him in 20 years) was: "long time havent seen you." then everyone broke into tears...

my eldest brother is migrating to australia, he will be goin there after chinese new year. but i donno which part of australia wil he be settling down. what a shame.

n again i heard from my mom, my second elder sister is planning to migrate to u.s. as well. visa application submitted, now waiting for approval. suddenly my family is goin globalisation. it saddens my mom, my father wont be bothered as he oredi turns into a carefree kid. his biggest worry is stil the wires he constantly confuse as snakes.

from the above paragraphes it illustrates well enought how far i fall apart from my family. being the youngest in the family, i don hav much burden n responsibility on me, plus being staying on my own, most of the time i don share the stress of taking care of my parkinson-turn-alzheimers father. so from now onwards, i wanna commit myself in seeing them more often, especially now when everyone has their own plan after starting their own family.

my love
i lost one, i thought i wil never love again.

i found one, am taught and shown i can be loved like that.

it's not smooth, it's bumpy and stormy at times. but i want it to last, and i hope it wil be.

my friends & colleagues
i don have many close friends, one hand wil do the job if i need to count them. for all the years we know each other, we don feel odd or speechless even we meet less than 5 times a year. tht's true friends i call.

i met many people in work, some r better jus be a colleague, some turns into a dear friend. which ever side they r, thank you for walking into my life.

my job
the burger nightmare continues. but i've found a way to deal with it - is to run away from time to time, then face it again. so this nightmare seems not that scary anymore. it becomes a nuisance instead. imagine the devils standing in front of you and tear so-they-thought the most horrifying look, and threaten to sack you from the job (again), you just look straight into their eyes and say:"c'mon, gimme a break."

devils can run out of new materials sometimes, especially the stupid ones.

my 2007
battle to stop saying 'fuck' continues. cutting down maybe, it is till the most essential word needed in many situations in work, in life.

clean the laziness in my genes. get back to the old hobbies, i mean, minus the lazying around and sleep straight for 13 hours in weekends.

having said this, it is really 2007 oredi. fu... shit.