holy smoke!

omos everyone met me for the first time thinks am a hardcore smoker.

i learnt how to smoke when i was 15. i stole a stick from my father, hid in the bathroom n took the first smoke in my life. i was almost choked to death, the loud coughing drew my father's attention. he knocked the door n i was panic like hell. i let the window wide opened n swang the shower in the air, hoping to clear the smell. i guess my father didnt find out after all. it wasnt a success, i didnt know how to smoke then.

when a friend approached me for my second smoking lesson, in a bar when i was 24, i said ok. am always curious bout how does it feel when we smoke. i didnt inhale it to my lung, i jus blew the smoke out from the mouth, without the choke i thought i knew how to smoke oredi. "it's not tht difficult!" i told myself. then i saw other ppl hav smoke coming out from their nostrils so i asked my friend why. she said i must inhale hard enough into the lung then i'll look the same as others. i did as she said. n again, i was almost choked to death. someone finished the other half of the ciggie for me. i felt d dryness in my throat, and in the lung. i don think i like it.

until now at age 31, i stil donno how to smoke n am stil curious bout it. i often ask friends who smoke bout the effects they get. does it make them feel good? relaxed? yes, mostly they say. n some of them say it's difficult to describe d feelings unless i try it myself. trust me, i did try to learn, but it's jus wasnt my cup of tea.

sometimes u jus donno how to do one thing even u put efforts in it, tht's becos u don like it at all.

written on 2/7/06 00:02